25 July 2020

A fan's tribute to SSR

Your last movie, Dil Bechara released yesterday on the OTT platform!

Your last movie!? Really?

I am still in two minds! I am not sure if I should watch the movie, which I know for sure is an emotional ride and a tear-jerker! I cried the last time when I watched you die in "Kai Po Che." I knew you aren't around in person anymore, then why did I cry watching you die in that movie? The movie Kedarnath has the same ending where you die, and I am sure the film that released yesterday would also be having the same end, of you, dying with a big smile on your face. The songs of your last movie are the right tribute to you, I feel. A. R. Rahman is a magician who has done full justice to the album, and I can't stop listening to the music in a loop and imagining your smiling face in all those numbers!

Like millions of your fans, I am not still able to come to terms with your departure, your sudden departure from this world. You had so much potential, so much love, so much talent. You had the humility and a thirst for learning new things. You had so many plans to make this world a better place, do something big in the craft that you really loved to the core, and wanted to be the best in whatever you did!

After your death, people have gone crazy. Your fans are not able to accept that you committed suicide. Many smell a foul play in your departure, and they want a thorough investigation of your death. Many people have resorted to making videos of your life, your friends, your enemies, your movies, etc. People are talking to each other about your goodness, your charm, your dedication towards life, and personal growth. A few fans are contacting people (dealing with paranormal things) and asking to have sessions with your departed soul!? They want an answer, just like I do. They want to know the reason behind your exit. An exit that no one had imagined when they met you in person or watched your movies in theatres. Many questions are surrounding your death, and no one really knows if there would be any answers available to them. We all know that nothing is going to bring you back. That smile is never going to return. That twinkle in your eyes is never going to be there again. We are never going to watch you in movies, exploring different themes, and achieving unparalleled success. We should now accept that you had only those many breaths on this earth and that much time to give your fans and your loved ones.

I think you have become more popular after your death, which is actually an unfortunate thing. No one really talked to you or wanted to know how you were doing when you were alive. You had no friends, no real friends to fall back on. You were the lone star who was standing strong amidst dark clouds and dark nights. And now you have become a star yourself. How does it feel to look down? How does it feel to see a war raged after your death?

I pray for your peace. I pray for your soul to achieve the next stage for which it left the earth. I thank you for making our lives bright by your movies and your acts. I thank you for taking the risk to swim against the tide.

I hope the truth will be out, sooner or later.

I hope you will get justice.

I hope we all will get justice.

Dedicating this song to you, dear Sushant.

Tum Na hue mere to kya

Your admirer and your fan

XYZ


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