Immediately
after I came back from Germany
in October, we had planned a quick trip to Pune and then my native place in
Mumbai. Tanay had turned 7 months old then and the “JaavaL” (ceremony of
removing hair) was due. So we first went to Pune, finished off that ritual on
the w/e and then Atul went back to Bangalore
on the same day. I stayed on with Tanay for next few days. I wanted Tanay to
spend his first Diwali (Festival of lights) with his grandparents and in their
house.
I did not
know that there were surprises and lessons for me in store during this stay.
As you
all would have realized by reading about Tanay now that he is extremely social
and loveable baby. He keeps on smiling all the time and likes to be surrounded
by people so that they can talk to him and play with him. To his surprise,
there was one more person this time, his blood relative in the house (@ Pune)
and that person hardly paid any attention to this little fellow. I will call that person X as I do not want to
name him or her in a public forum. Tanay’s squeals of laughter, his cries, his
tears, and his playful demeanor did not move X at all. Tanay’s face was a sight
to see. Poor baby!! He tried hard to seek X’s attention, but X has forgotten to
smile in his life, I guess! Because X had some problems with me and my husband
once upon a time, X passed that anger and sour attitude to this little baby
also. I had a faint hope that X would have changed for good and the arrival of
a small member would change the equation between us. But no, I was mistaken. I
felt very bad for my baby. X neither played with him nor spoke to him lovingly
or took him in his arms. No doubt X got some trendy clothes for Tanay, but then
what was the use of these materialistic things when X could not display any warm
feelings or emotions towards such an extremely cute baby. I would have thrown
those clothes away or given them to the needy people, but so that my family
members won’t feel bad, I had to carry them to Bangalore. I haven’t put on for Tanay yet, do
not feel like. X hardly took notice of me or spoke to me. I was not moved at
all, was rather expecting that. I have now gone beyond all the emotions of
getting hurt and sitting brooding over it, thinking about why this person
behaved like this or why this person said like this. Now nothing else matters
to me than my son, who is the most important to me in my life. Even when we
left the house to come back to Bangalore,
X did not bid us a goodbye. We do not know when we will see each other again or
if we will ever see each other again. X did not even acknowledge our exit. I
really felt pity for X. X was left bereft of a wonderful baby like Tanay. It
was X’s bad luck that this person did not interact with such a sweet natured
baby in a way which was usually expected from Tanay’s blood relative. Anyways,
Tanay won’t even remember or recognize X the next time he sees X, which is a
good thing. But I will not be able to forget this episode for a very long time.
Cut to
Mumbai,
I visited
my grandmother who is 80 years old and she was waiting to see her great
grandson from the time he was born. So in my super short trip to Mumbai, I had
to keep 1 day aside for her. She was so overwhelmed by seeing such an active
and cute baby that she wanted us to stay for some more days, but unfortunately
that was not possible. To give you all a background about my next experience, there
has been fallout in the past between my maternal uncle and my mom for some
misunderstanding created by his wife and from past 5 years, we are out of
touch. I was the world for my maternal uncle and suddenly he cut all his
contacts with me for no fault of mine. I did not even get time to clear my side
or ask him the reason for not talking to me. I accepted the fact that we were
destined to be associated only till that period and I moved on, so did he and
his family. Off late, my mother told me that he has started visiting and
talking to her and she did take that sportingly, but now the emotions were
dead. It has just remained a formality for her. My grandmother had told my
uncle that I was going to visit her with my son and there was a faint ray of
hope in my heart that he would come and see my little one because he had become
a grandfather. Again, here my hopes were dashed and he proved again that
nothing had really changed between us. Anyways, I am not really sure when I
would ever be meeting him in my life with Tanay in Mumbai again.
And on
the contrary, our (my and my hubby’s) common friends came to see Tanay with
such enthusiasm. My mom’s very close friend and her husband came over at night
just because they wanted to see me. They got gifts for him, blessed him, played
with him, and talked to him. They came after office, they were extremely tired,
but they took some time out. They did not want to miss this chance of seeing me
and Tanay as I said earlier; I really do not know when a trip to Mumbai will be
possible with him again. What was their relation with Tanay? He was my son, for
them I was important and they came for me to see my son.
These two
experiences strengthened my belief in the fact that ties and bonds made by the
heart out of love and mutual respect are greater than the ties of blood. I have
had these experiences in my immediate family, what else could I have expected
from others, who were not a part of my family. But I got immense love,
attention and care from all my near and dear and close friends. I do not know
if I can ever thank them for being with me through thick and thin. I pity X and
my maternal uncle’s family for missing the chance to interact with their very
own kin.
Maybe
they were not destined this happiness…
If life could be without the complications of relationships, it would have been a happier place to live in. But then there wouldn't have been any lessons to learn.
ReplyDeleteI guess these bitter and sweet relationship truths are best accepted with open arms and life must move on from there :-)
Yes John, well said. I am sure when I read this post 10 years from now, I will laugh at myself for noting such a trivial incident. This post is just to remind myself that bitter and sweet do go hand in hand.
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ReplyDeleteEgos do melt atleast for the sake of kids..... but i guess its X's bad luck that he/she deprived him-/herself of the innocent love of a child....
Again.. i had expected something good when i read your title "Cut to Mumbai".....but the same story here as well....
Anyways I am sure that there are so many people to love Tanay apart from them that he will never feel the absence of his blood relatives in his life..
Loads of love and blessings for Tanay
Tanay chi mavshi- Snehal
Relationship management is the key of our life and we really can't avoid it.
ReplyDeleteAlso, we need to understand, the value of our time. If some body is unable to recognize it, forget and forgive, what else can we do.
I pitty those who can not recognze it.....