The dilemma

My mother-in-law left for Pune today after spending two and a half months with us in Germany. And suddenly the house seems empty without her. Her presence is always soothing and has a calming effect on people when she smiles from deep within. She is very spiritual and the glow on her face and the deep understanding of people and life has come from not only this birth but also from many previous births of accumulating knowledge and good deeds which I believe very strongly. I so wish to be like her, but I think I am not ready yet and need much more deeper knowledge. We often held spiritual discussions and celebrated many occasions here. It's always good to have a parent around, no matter how old we grow.