The moment

"Look your baby is clapping", the radiologist exclaimed!

Lying on the bed for the 20 weeks sonography, I peered at the screen to have a look at the life thriving inside me. My joy knew no bounds. Tears welled up in my eyes. I watched at it continuously and was wondering, when will the baby land in my hands? My father was there in the room too. It must have been a totally different experience for him to watch his own grandchild even before it has taken birth.

The trend has changed so much. My dad saw me only when I took birth, but now he is watching his grandchild even before it is born. Atul missed the sight as he was away in Germany for work. I couldn't get the recording either to show it to him. The radiologist examined the baby for 15-20 minutes, took all the necessary parameters and showed me all the vital parts of the baby's body like his face, stomach, spinal cord, hands, legs, eyes, nose. They were so tiny, but were developing as expected and the baby also weighed 275 gms now!!! The radiologist gave me a green signal and said everything is fine.

Beaming with joy, I walked out of the room and waited for the report patiently.

That wait of half an hr took me into a flashback.

I remembered the day when I first did the home pregnancy test 5 months ago and it showed positive. I had got up at 2 am and had done the test. I couldn't believe my eyes at all, so I woke Atul up and asked him to check it too. He was speechless and said yes, it was indeed positive. We both couldn't sleep after that. We were happy, very happy and at the same time, we couldn't believe that it has finally happened to us after a wait of so many years. I had done everything possible for conceiving, reduced my weight, went into dieting, tried ayurvedic medicines, prayed etc. etc. But then as it is rightly said, things happen at the right time and god knows best when to give you that right thing. I conceived when we were not thinking about it so deeply.

I consulted the doctor in my apartment and she asked me to do a sonography for confirming the pregnancy. That time, I was so thrilled and nervous at the same time that I could hardly believe that motherhood is finally happening to me. That tiny dot throbbing with full vigour in my womb was as though telling me, mom, I am finally here! Your wait is over. I am coming to you in a few months from now. And how that tiny dot has now increased to a baby. which has a definite form now and which I can very nicely identify! I couldn't thank nature and God enough. We all know the natural things happening inside a woman while the baby is growing inside, but then isn't it really amazing the way this process unfolds in front of our eyes? A life growing by leaps and bounds inside another life is indeed a miracle for me and I am enjoying every moment of this miracle growing inside me.

By the sixth month now, the presence of the baby will be more evident as it will start kicking inside. That is again going to be another experience to which I am looking forward to. But the ultimate moment will be when the baby will finally land in my hands and I will touch it's soft, pink skin with my own hands and see that tiny little thing with my own hands. Those tiny little feet, which went touched will turn more pink and those tiny little hands which will catch my finger very firmly where I will escort my baby in the greater world and nurture those hands to gain strength and courage to do right things!

I am so looking forward to motherhood that nothing else seems important to me at this time in my life!!

Back again

Hello Folks,

I have lost the count of time since past 3-4 months.

When was it the last time that I wrote on my blog with the ever-infectious enthusiasm of mine? Think it was on my birthday, almost a month back.

What was holding me back? No one had prohibited me from writing. I had all the means to write. Internet, laptop, but still why had I become so lazy? There were thoughts in my mind, but then putting them on paper became so difficult that I wondered at myself. I once wrote daily about some thing or the other and now from past 2 months, I hadn't even bothered to open the home page of my blog and check it out.

Well, my life now revolves around different priorities.

Finally god has answered my prayers. The good wishes and blessings of my elders, relatives, friends, acquaintances has finally received a nod from that almighty and he has given me the greatest happiness a woman could ever get. He has bestowed upon me the chance of bringing another little life in this world, nurture it, care for it and make it fit to stay in this world. A woman who has been waiting for this ultimate happiness can't ask for more and I have been basking in this happiness from the time I learned that I am going to become a mother.

I now dream of my little one all the time, pray for that little life throbbing inside me. I eat well so that the baby is well nourished. I think positive and listen to good things so that the baby is happy and cheerful and positive just like it's environment. Atul wonders, how the baby will look, whether it will be a boy or a girl. Whether it will be academically intelligent like me or self-professed dud like him in studies? But all these things are secondary at this point of time. Important is that the baby comes to this world without any hassles, has good health and immunity and gets well adjusted to this new world where so many people will be doting on him/her.

I have 2 grandmothers (very much active and kicking), Atul has 1 grandmother and they all are looking forward to that tiny bundle of joy to appear in front of their eyes.  That day will be a treat to everybody's eyes who will be present that day to see 4 generations under 1 roof. This is a rare occassion nowadays. But I am fortunate enough to see it. I saw my great-grandmother and my baby will also see it's great grandmothers and I am very happy about it.

So people, pray for me and wish me luck that I have mental and physical strength to bring my baby to this world without much hassles.

Amen!